Saturday, November 30, 2013

Tacloban: Unang Yugto

Mahigit isang linggo na ang nakalilipas mula ng ako ay ipadala sa Tacloban. Isang misyong walang kaabog abog na aking tinanggap sa kabila ng aking hectic na schedule. Kung sabagay, wala naman akong ibang choice kundi pumunta. Kasama ito sa aking dagdag trabaho. Responsibilidad ko ito bilang isang bahagi ng Emergency Response ng Kawani ng Kalusugan.

Alam kong madaming naantig sa mga balita na napapanood sa telebisyon. Maraming naluha sa bawat kwento at litrato na kanilang nakikita. Pero ako na mismo ang magsasabi sa inyo, iba kapag ikaw na ang nasa Tacloban. Para kang nasa Silent Hill o di kaya'y Walking Dead. 

Tacloban Airport. Too bad there's no proper command system for the first few days.
Welcome to the Booming City of Tacloban.
Aerial View of Tacloban    

Provincial Capitol of Leyte is still standing strong. Though debris of destroyed establishments are seen around the building. FYI: This building used to be the Malacanang Palace way back 1940's
Yes, it's true! Dead people are still everywhere. Lying around the street side or just at any corner.
Siguro, mga Day 3 or 4 kami pagkatapos ng bagyo dumating sa Tacloban. Isa ang team namin sa mga naunang pinadala. Lingid sa kaalaman ng mga nakararami, ang unang team na ipapadala ang sasalo ng pinakamabigat na trabaho. At iyon nga ang dinatnan namin. 

Sa katunayan, dalawang beses na nacancel ang departure date namin. Dapat ay Sabado pa lamang ay naroon na kami. Nakakatawa mang isipin pero nadelay ang aming pagalis ng dahil sa C130. Oo. Mismong ang Health Team ng Kagawaran ng Kalusugan ay di binigyang priority na sumakay sa C130. E kung si Sec. Dinky Soliman nga ay bumubula ang bibig dahil maski siya ay tinanggal sa listahan ng mga sasakay roon. Hay. Nakakatawa talaga ang National Government natin.
Hindi ito C130. Isa ito sa mga Military Plane ng Estados Unidos. Bumibiyahe ito oras oras para ilabas ang mga tao palabas ng Tacloban patungong Cebu.

Tatlong araw. Tatlong araw kaming walang pagkain at inumin. Bakit? Nakakalungkot isipin na ang mismong package ng Kawani ng Kalusugan ay nawala. Nabuhay kami sa paginom mula sa mga buko na nakikitang nakakalat sa paligid. Pinagtiyagaan naming magbigay ng lunas sa mga naroon ng walang laman ang tiyan. Tanging tawa at biruan na lamang ang aming ginawa. Dumating naman ang package namin, siguro mga dalawang araw bago kami umalis. Ang masakit nito ay bukas na ang aming mga kahon. Nabawasan ang laman. Nawawala ang mga laman. Di namin alam kung sino ang sisisihin sa mga nangyari. Kung nakanino ang kakulangan. Hayaan na lamang natin. Nakaraos naman kami.

Isang bagong panganak na sanggol. Walang kamuwangmuwang sa nangyaring delubyo.
Sa kabila ng bagyong dumating, parang bagyo rin naman ang dating ng mga bagong paslit sa amin. Humigit kumulang sampu hanggang labinlimang bata ang ipinapanganak sa lugar bawat araw sa aming kinalalagyan. Walang nursery o di kaya'y kuryente upang magsilbing warmer para sa kanila. Sa kabuuan ng sampung araw na inilagi namin roon, mahigit pitong bagong panganak rin ang pumanaw. Masasabi kong maswerte na sila, kesa naman danasin nila ang hirap ng pagbangon muli ng Tacloban.

Chapel: Nagsilbing Nursery ng mga bata. Ang mga pasyenteng malapit sa altar ang mga batang nangangailangan ng matinding atensyong medikal. Humigit kumulang 80 na bagong panganak ang pasyente ko sa chapel.    




#Bored

I'm on leave and got nothing to do.
Got no where to go.

Crap.
Let's get out.
Join me.

Friday, November 22, 2013

Email 2





This is the last part of the 16 pages attachment he sent to me.
Some parts were not included. 
The darkened portion shows my name.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Email

Sean's email hours before I board my plane ride to Tacloban, Leyte

I have been reading this several times already. 
I can't decipher anything from it.
I don't know what this is up to. 
What happens next?

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Unexpected

I received an email from Ex (Sean) just a a few hours before boarding my flight to Leyte. -- How should I react? What should I feel?




















Friday, November 8, 2013

Call of Duty



I will be leaving in one to two days from now. 
I need to go to where Typhoon Yolanda just left.
All my plans for the week has been cancelled.
My vacation to Baguio will be postponed as well.
I haven't had a decent rest day for six days already.
But I can't complain.
We need to be there.
 Call of Duty.




Monday, November 4, 2013

Sleepless Thoughts I

Everything is fast paced. It's like everything is being rushed. Deadlines are set. Targets should be accomplished. Days have been marked. Was it too fast? Am I really doing this?

My decision to move out of the country was prompted because of our break up. I needed a new environment to start all over again. I was even enthusiastic with the thought of working on a different country, meeting new people, earning more and being independent. I immediately processed my papers to anywhere possible. I started to plan my career change and even pictured a happy me on a different place. Excited with the change is what I should be feeling now. Rather, I feel confused. I feel all alone again.

I barely have an hour to sleep before I start preparing for today's work. But Mr. Sandman forgot to whisk his sleeping dust over me leaving me awake for almost 18 hours now. And since I cannot force myself to sleep, my mind played his tricks on me again. I have a heavy lump on my throat and a big burden on my chest. 

"It's too fast", I said to myself.

 "Is it?", I asked again.

I guess I just needed someone right now. Someone who can calm me. Who can tell me to pause for a while. To tell me that everything will be okay. To tell me that no matter what happens, he/she will be there for me. I guess I needed affection. I need someone who can hold my hand and say nothing, yet make me feel that I am not alone in this game. I need someone to hug me tight right now so I can jump into a world full of dreams. 

I don't necessarily miss him. I miss what people with relationships do for each other. 

PS.
There was one time before when I hadn't had sleep and needed to go to work. He told me not to force myself to go on duty. And that's the first time I incurred an absence. He went home to me and I slept on his arms.